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6-26-08

6-26-08

Day 685 of 365 More.

You know, I gave serious thought to quitting smoking today. I really did. In fact, I only had 3 cigarettes in my pack when I woke up this morning and i was like "well, that’s it. Today is the day. Just think of the money I’ll save."

Made those three last til after work. Had the last one at like 6.

I made it til like 11.

I just had to get my fix. It is so very sad.

Mike Tyson once said to Barbara Walters that he was on Zoloft for the world’s protection. "I take Zoloft to keep me from killing you." Truer words were never spoken. That Mike Tyson is a genius.

365 days

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35 comments for “6-26-08

  1. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 12:45 am

    I’ve tried ‘quitting’ like 4 times. I think the longest I made it was 8 hours. Hahaaa.

    You only live once. If you like to smoke just do it. At least that’s how I feel.

  2. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 12:46 am

    And I must say you’re looking very muscley here. Been working out? 😉

  3. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 12:49 am

    @like_shipwrecks: hey… been trying to catch you online for the last couple days. Hop on AIM.

  4. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 12:51 am

    Aw, poor addict. I’m glad I never started because I hear it’s ridiculously tough to quit. I think it’s good that you tried, one day you may actually do it.

  5. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 12:54 am

    smoking was the hardest thing i’ve ever quit…..great way of expressing it!

    ….been a few years and i still want one sometimes!

  6. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 1:00 am

    I might get on a little later. Im not trying to be a bitch and ignore you, I promise. Im just having issues.

  7. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 1:05 am

    You obviously don’t do intravenous drugs, you’re doing that all wrong. :oP

    I ‘quit’ last July. I’ve maybe smoked a pack’s worth in the last year, one here, one there. The initial few months were the toughest. You can do it though. If you want it.

  8. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 1:33 am

    Hi, I’m an admin for a group called Stunning & Unique Portraits!, and we’d love to have this added to the group!

  9. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 1:45 am

    @like_shipwrecks: I’ve quit for month on a stretch before. And once for like a year and a half. This time, I just can’t though. I think you may be right.

    @PhotoKat: some day. I dunno when. But some day.

    @*Kristene: yeah, even when I wasn’t smoking last time, I still had that feeling.

    @like_shipwrecks: ok… well, hook up with me when you get the chance. I definitely get the concept of having issues. I have quite a few myself.

    @Sick Little Monkey: Nope. I don’t. But actually I had to adjust to make the shot work right. Cigarettes don’t really have the same visual as a needle.

    @EnjoyLife Productionz: I don’t like to add pics to private groups. Thanks though.

  10. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 1:47 am

    I hear trying to quit is a lot like trying to lose weight. Those who don’t give up eventually make good progress. So don’t get discouraged! It may not get easier, but if you keep pushing yourself you’ll at least know you’re capable of greater self-control than you originally thought possible. I mean, look how long you went without a cigarette today. I think that counts for something. You’re an inspiration.

  11. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 1:53 am

    @ninjanun: I’m actually trying to lose a bit of weight too, and it’s damn near impossible to do both at the same time. The thing with willpower is I can’t force it. At the end of the day, I like smoking. I really don’t want to quit. I’m mostly trying because intellectually I know its unhealthy and I should. But I do tons of unhealthy things. I have to really WANT it to make it happen, and I’m not getting there.

  12. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 2:30 am

    I’ve quit for more than a year and a half once! Then started again. Damn those addictions!

    Now I’ve quit again (been 2 years), with an occasional once-in-a-few-months-when-I-go-out cigarette. That’s a happy medium for me. Cause, yeah, it’s fun to smoke, like Nicole says, but it’s not fun to smell/taste like smoke, to wake up coughing and to eventually end up with lotsa pain in some hospital!

    How about cutting back? That’s something!

  13. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 4:42 am

    I agree with and mirrored today all of what you said

  14. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 7:16 am

    It’s a "B" trying to quit!!! You know I’ve tried before, it’s miserable to be a nicotine junkie, trying to get the monkey off your back. Good for you for even thinking about trying. When the time is right, it’ll work. After almost 1 1/2 yrs. I’m still waiting until I absolutely don’t crave them. I can handle the craving now, it just doesn’t go away completely.

    And I love this shot!

  15. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 7:22 am

    When the time is right … that’s key. I tried time and time again before it actually clicked for me. It’s been nearly a year and a half since I quit, and I still miss it.

  16. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 7:56 am

    … I haven’t had a smoke in over 10 years, and seeing pics of cigs still makes me want one… Once a junkie always a junkie! (You captured the essence perfectly…)

  17. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 8:17 am

    Hey Mav – I just passed 11 months without a smoke so my non-smoking picture will be coming at the year mark. Worst thing I ever had to do, and I didn’t think I’d ever be able to after many attempts. Then someone hit me with the right anti-smoking comment at the right time and it stuck. A week later I’d stopped completely and I haven’t looked back. Wish I could explain why but I just knew it was the right time for me. Best of luck, and I’ll be there for support if you try again, but if you aren’t feeling it then maybe you just shouldn’t try right away?!

  18. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 8:49 am

    i really wanted to quit on the 26th too….summer always makes me want to quit, and then, like you, i run out of smokes and take a 180 back into smokerville….

  19. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 9:11 am

    Well you can watch my videos to see how much it sucks. LOL. I have to make one more to just let folks know I didn’t start again, but this Monday will be 11 weeks w/o a cigarette.

    It was easier to give up the heroin. No fucking lie.

    This is not to discourage you, but to say it is better to not delude oneself. It is going to suck. But you have to want it and have to be ready for it to suck. No kidding, getting past that 6 week mark made a big difference. It is not as hard now. I miss it, but I don’t feel insane from it anymore. 😉

  20. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 9:55 am

    My advice… do it slowly. None of that cold turkey crap. I quit over the course of a month… slowly working myself down to 1 a day… then a half a day… then stopping all together. Yes there was a bit of discomfort, but not near as bad as when I tried to go from a pack a day to nothing. My Quitting Anniversary is on July 5th… didn’t quite make it for Independence day 🙂 I’ve been cig free for almost 2 years. You can do this.

  21. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 9:57 am

    @olga_sgr: yeah, I wish I could only smoke socially…. for a while I did that actually. Parties and bars. These days though, I need it to get through the day.

    @Jack Scoresby: yeah, *sigh*

    @lrayholly: oh… when I quit for a year and a half before, I never really stopped craving. But after a week or so the constant stomach pain when away. I dunno. Sooner or later I’ll be unstressed enough that I can give it a real try.

    @ej (umop ap!sdn): I don’t know if the time will ever be right.

    @Jenny Lisa: pretty much. And thank you.

    @[AJ]: one of the big reasons I keep trying to quit is that steph doesn’t like it. The problem is, I DO like it. I really do. That removes a lot of the motivation right there.

    @aprilzosia: some day, I suppose. Or maybe I’ll just die. Who knows.

    @sadandbeautiful (Sarah): I believe it. Heroin might kill you to give up, sure, but you probably never did as much heroin as you did nicotine (cuz you’d be dead) and I know you smoked for way longer. So while the physical addiction might not be as had, the sheer mental habit of needing to smoke is probably worse. *sigh*

  22. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 9:59 am

    @Queen Roly: oh… that was the plan. I actually CAN’T smoke a pack a day anymore. I get really sick. I smoke maybe 6 or so a day. Two packs a week. Last time I quit, I used the slowly weening myself method and when I started again, I never got up that high. These days, half a pack is a lot for me.

  23. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 10:09 am

    Just don’t bite any ears off.

  24. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 10:27 am

    @shockingbird: they’re so tasty though.

  25. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 4:54 pm

    Very clever shot. Love it. Instant fave.

  26. avatar
    June 27, 2008 at 7:54 pm

    @afunkydamsel: thank you and thanks for the fave?

  27. avatar
    June 28, 2008 at 12:31 am

    Statistically speaking, it takes a smoker an average of seven attempts before he can quit. I’ve gotten down to smoking a pack every two days to smoking a pack every four days. It ain’t easy, but eventually it’s worth it.

  28. avatar
    June 28, 2008 at 1:09 am

    @docbryantusn: oh, I’ve done way more than 7 quit attempts. We’ll see.

  29. avatar
    June 29, 2008 at 11:08 am

    I’m glad I never got introduced to nicotine. However,my caffeine addiction is really bad. But that’s what happen when you work in an airport during the graveyard shift. 7/11’s, DD’s and occasional visits of coffee truck are the only things that are available. =( Makes it hard to lose the coffee problem. not to mention the weight issue too. it’s hard.

  30. avatar
    June 29, 2008 at 11:09 am

    I just notice that all your shots are a bit… hmm… don’t know how to describe it. are the past few shots you took are considered "artwork"?

  31. avatar
    June 29, 2008 at 2:59 pm

    Might as well take it directly to the blood stream eh? Nice shot.


    Seen on your photo stream. (?)

  32. avatar
    June 30, 2008 at 12:51 am

    @excalipoor: I used to be quite addicted to caffeine too. That was a bitch and half to kick. But I got through it with no relapses. Nicotine, not so much.

    @The Reub: thanks. Yeah, sometimes I even consider just getting a nicotine drip and mainlining it.

  33. avatar
    July 4, 2008 at 7:12 pm

    This is an excellent pic! Thank you!

  34. avatar
    July 11, 2008 at 6:19 pm

    WIN!
    I’ma have to Fav this one!

  35. avatar
    July 21, 2008 at 5:08 pm

    @Lovely Lenore: thank you.

    @robonutz001: glad you like it.

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