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Day 229 of 365 days.

I had this idea a while back and never got around to it til today. I kind of like the concept and I’m thinking of revisiting it for the Mage card in my tarot deck with whoever I decide to make that card. I definitely need to come up with more realistic fire though.

Long day today. Had my interview with that company again. The CEO told me that they liked me but he wasn’t sure I was the perfect fit for what they’re looking for. So now they’re trying to figure out whether they want to adjust what they are looking for or not. *shrug* It’s pretty much out of my hands now. We’ll see. I wonder if I’ll have to go in for an unprecedented 5th interview.

Steph’s grandmother died yesterday. Wake tomorrow and funeral on Friday. I absolutely, totally, and in all ways hate funerals. I like really despise them. There is nothing so uncomfortable in the world. I don’t even go to the funerals of my family (something some people in my family seem to very much resent). I told Steph I’d go with her to this one though. So forgive me if I’m really morose and depressed on Friday. Steph has given me a reprieve from the wake however. Not only do I consider wakes depressing, I just think they’re downright creepy. Congregating around the deceased. Way creepy. When I go, you’re all invited to remember me the way that I would remember any of you, with a couple shots of tequila in a local dive bar, thinking of the good times. As for my body, I don’t really care what you do with it, I won’t be using it anymore. Hopefully something cool, shoot me into space, cremate me and dump me into the ink for a book I wrote, load me in a missile and fire me at [insert Axis of Evil enemy here]. Whatever. But seriously, why would you want to hang out around it. Have a drink, on me.

In any case, since this is eventually going to go in my book one day, I want to take this moment to offer my heart felt condolences to Steph and her family. I love you, Sweetie.

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26 comments for “3-28-07

  1. March 29, 2007 at 12:39 am

    That is a really cool shot! Don’t know what you’d do to the fire to make it better though… maybe try having it come out of the palms of your hands instead of the whole hand? Oh yeah, and for goodness sake, put on some clothes before you catch a cold!

    I’m really surprised you’re going to the funeral! Actually, I’m shocked. I’m glad you’re doing it for Steph though. I’ve always supported you not going because of your personal feelings but I’m feeling a little conflicted about you going now (hope you understand that). But again, it’s a good thing that you are doing for Steph. Love to you both. My heartfelt sympathies to Steph and family. And Steph: Give a big hug to Grandpa for me!

  2. March 29, 2007 at 12:40 am


  3. March 29, 2007 at 12:44 am

    @lrayholly: actually, I really really really really really don’t want to go… like a whole bunch I don’t want to. But (and I know she’s going to read this later, and I dont’ want it to sound cold) it’ll be a little easier for me since, i honestly didn’t know her grandmother all that well. That said, its really going to knock me on my ass and if it were anyone else, I wouldn’t be doing it for them.

    @Jack Scoresby: hmmm… something like that… I should do a breathing fire pic (which I can actually do with a shot of 151) in this project at some point.

  4. March 29, 2007 at 12:46 am

    you’re writing is crazy good mav. blessings…

  5. March 29, 2007 at 12:47 am

    @jessie doncaster: thanx. I’m actually kinda afraid I sound mean most of the time.

  6. March 29, 2007 at 12:52 am

    Yeah, I understand ya.

  7. March 29, 2007 at 1:01 am

    🙂 you don’t sound mean. you sound like you know what you believe and say it. besides your intention, there is just a nice flow to your writing. easy to read. if you can captivate my sorry ass for more than a paragraph you must be good 🙂

  8. March 29, 2007 at 1:45 am

    @jessie doncaster: Well, actually I do have a degree in writing (actually a double major in creative writing and literary and cultural studies, which is also a lot of writing), and I have been an avid blogger for years, so i guess some of that is probably coming through. Really I just like to get my thoughts out every day on this.

  9. March 29, 2007 at 10:51 am

    This shot is fabulous hon… and not just because there’s a naked you in the middle of it. Tho’ I agree that the fire could be more realistic, it still looks damn cool.

    And I’m so sorry about Steph’s grandmother. And I’m sorry that you’re going to have a hard time being at the funeral…. But you already know you’re doing the right thing to support her and if you help her get through it even a little bit easier than it will be worth the hardship on your end. *hug*

  10. March 29, 2007 at 11:23 am

    Very cool shot, though I really wish I could see more. 😉

    *redirects* Anyway! Very sorry to hear about Steph’s grandmother…heartfelt condolences to her and her family. Totally understand hating funerals.
    Being Jewish, I really never understood the wake thing or the open casket thing. We don’t do that. The first time I went to a Catholic funeral was when guy I knew in recovery relapsed and overdosed. I went up with the line of people to the open casket and was horrified. I didn’t want to see him like that at all. I wanted to remember the last time I saw him sober.
    Hang in there, Mav.

  11. March 29, 2007 at 11:43 am

    @mickeysacks: I’m trying to not seem heartless about it, but I dunno if it’s going to be worth the harship or not. I’m actually already pretty depressed thinking about it. Stupid neurosis.

    @sadandbeautiful (Sarah): More? Geeze… are you really that excited about my "naughty bits?" I honestly consider male genitalia so unattractive. My main problem with funerals is that I’m prone to severe bouts of depression and that’s one of the things that trigger them. But even if I ignore that for a moment, I kind of agree with you. Why would anyone want to go to such a thing in the first place? It’s just so morbid.

  12. March 29, 2007 at 11:43 am

    oh, and Steph says thank you to everyone for the well wishes.

  13. March 29, 2007 at 11:46 am

    Sorry for Steph’s loss….I feel EXACTLY the same about how funerals and wakes…exactly.

    Re: this shot….it made me say "Whoa" It’s very cool, wish it was a little brighter though, maybe it’s my screen (?)

    (now who’s baiting Explore???) Heh. Heh.

    Seriously, I wish you and Steph some peace during this rough time.

  14. March 29, 2007 at 11:55 am

    @PhotoKat: Thanx. So do you ever actually go to funerals anyway or do you skip them and go out drinking and let your relatives disdain you like I do? And I am so not baiting explore. I don’t have boobies. 🙂 This seriously won’t even make it.

  15. March 29, 2007 at 1:34 pm

    Hey, we do plenty of drinking! We have the public "wake" but then we have our private "wake". That’s where you get to tell great stories about the person and visit with relatives/family that you do like and get really drunk and eat all the food that people bring over!

  16. March 29, 2007 at 1:59 pm

    @lrayholly: and if you recall, I was available for the drinking when grampa died. I just choose to not do it in front of the body. And really, I didn’t enjoy it all that much that time anyway, because I had to explain to people about 80 times why I wasn’t going to the funeral. (And deal with people asking me ridiculous things like would I like to read the eulogy they wrote at the funeral)

  17. March 29, 2007 at 2:06 pm

    Nobody drank in front of the body! We saved that for the basement! And you weren’t special there – we ALL had to deal with the ridiculous eulogy thing… I just laughed at her!

  18. March 29, 2007 at 2:30 pm

    @lrayholly: that’s what I’m saying… I was fine with drinking in the basement. I had no desire to go hang out with the body.

  19. March 31, 2007 at 7:42 pm

    I love how your feet are positioned . I don’t know if I could do that.

    Seen in a discussion of The Exhibitionist. (?)

  20. April 2, 2007 at 12:31 am

    @~*Cherron*~: thanx. I’ve been able to do it since I was a little kid.

  21. April 3, 2007 at 8:54 am

    really cool! I like the pose and the candles.. everything!

  22. April 3, 2007 at 9:35 am

    @Ivania*~: thank you

  23. April 15, 2007 at 7:55 pm

    this shot is so cool. but I can’t do that without any clothes. ha ha. this totally works well for you.

  24. April 15, 2007 at 10:59 pm

    @luvhumpbacks: I’m actually not fond of this one. I think its hokey. But thank you.

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  26. April 16, 2007 at 11:28 pm

    @queentassone: really? On this one? Well thanks. You’ve been away. How are things going?

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