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Forever Fifteen?

Alyssa-then-nowI was perusing Facebook a little bit ago and my friend Dan mentioned that he’d recently bought the DVD of Cannonball Run, a great film classic if there ever was one (yes it is! Fuck you!) This got him talking a bit about Cannonball Run vs. Cannonball Run II and it made me ask if he’d ever seen the third installment, Speed Zone. Of course, I’m not surprised that he hadn’t. Honestly, it’s one of those movies that I don’t expect anyone other than me to ever have even heard of. It never came out on DVD. It wasn’t very good. And it’s one of those little footnotes in movie history that only matters to people like me.

I probably haven’t watched it in over 20 years. All I really remember about it is that Jamie Farr was the only returning member of the original cast, it starred John Candy and it had cameos from a lot of late 1980s stars including an EXTREMELY hot Alyssa Milano. And that’s where I really started to think about it.

See the movie is from 1989. Alyssa Milano wasn’t REALLY super hot in it. She was sixteen when she filmed it. And in fact, her characters entire subplot is that she’s trying to learn to drive while the Cannonball Run is going on around her. The thing is, I was fifteen when that movie came out and like all fifteen year old boys in 1989, I really wanted to fuck Alyssa Milano. Seriously, it’s true. This is even an easter egg in the Guardians of the Galaxy movie.

The nice thing about her, is that she’s a totally age appropriate crush for me. See, now that it’s 2016, I can look up a picture of Alyssa Milano at 43 and it turns out that 42 year old me still totally would love to fuck Alyssa Milano. This works out well! Age appropriate crush! Yay!

Danica-then-nowBut here’s where it gets weird. There’s this crazy cognitive dissonance. When I think back about that movie, all I can really remember about it is that she’s hot in it. But looking at an actual picture of 16 year old Alyssa I say “Oh my God, no! That girl is such jail bait.” But close my eyes and forget the picture and I’m back to “yep, I’d totally hit that.” So then I started thinking about other crushes I might have had in the 80s. Tatyana Ali has always been my standard bearer of “actress that you look at as a kid and know she will grow up hot.” Lisa Bonet, if anything is even hotter now than she was then. So is Soleil Moon Frye. Nicole Eggert went on to become a Baywatch sex symbol so no surprise there. Heather Graham is totally bangable to my adult fantasies, and again is someone who takes sex symbol roles to this day. Danica McKellar, oh God yes. (Seriously I have a massive crush on Danica McKellar… Math has never been so sexy).

The thing is, it turns out that most of the stars I had crushes on as a kid, I got to see grow up into adults and they’re either still on my radar or at least the the most recent mental picture that I have of them isn’t underaged and is still super attractive. In fact I had to think really hard to come up with one that who DIDN’T fit that bill and the best I can come up with is Lark Voorhies, whose appearance has been affected by much publicized other issues. But in her case, in my head, she still totally looks like Lisa Turtle. Except, in my head Lisa Turtle still *feels* like she should be hot and not like she should be jailbait.

It’s not so much that she is aging with me. If I close my eyes and think of other childhood crushes that were already legal at the time, they certainly don’t seem to have aged. Catherine Bach looks like Daisy Duke in my head. She’s still 25, even though she’s a wonderful looking woman at 62 in real life. Dawn Wells is probably the hottest 77 year old woman alive but in my brain she still looks like a 26-year-old Mary Ann. Audrey Hepburn will always look like Holly Golightly and not… you know… dead.

But for the ones that were underaged then (as I was), something weird happens when I look at their pictures. When I look at the pictures I have attached to this post, Winnie Cooper and Samantha Micelli look like children to me for like half a second… and then I realize “Oh my god, that’s Danica and Alyssa” and they’re suddenly hot again… and yet, when I look at the pictures next to their adult selves, it just sort of feels…. creepy.

So my question is: think back to the crushes you had as a teen. What I guess I’m wondering is, “do they age in your head?” Do you still find them attractive today and if you think about them do you think of them as they are now or as they were then? And does it feel creepy to think of them as sexual beings as teens to your adult selves even though you probably thought of them as sexual beings then?

18 comments for “Forever Fifteen?

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    May 23, 2016 at 12:12 pm

    My wife has problems watching the old Harry Potter movies after Radcliffe did that whole broadway show thing where he was nude on stage, and now she just feels creepy anytime she watches him as a kid.

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    May 23, 2016 at 1:19 pm

    Drew Barrymore is forever 5 to me (that is when I had a crush on her, when I was approximately 5). Of course, I basically return to being a five year old when I think of her that way. I just want to run up to her, punch her in the arm, and run away.

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      May 23, 2016 at 1:41 pm

      Another good example. But different. See, even as a teen I was never able to see Drew Barrymore as hot. Aesthetically she certainly is attractive, but since she’s basically my age ( a year younger) and I’ve always been aware of her even since she was a small child she still feels like a kid in my head.

      It’s like she’s perpetually in E.T.

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    May 24, 2016 at 7:05 am

    Noah Hathaway. He played Atreyu in The Neverending Story. Your post just made me look him up and I’m relieved to say he’s hotter now. Totally age appropriate.

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      May 24, 2016 at 7:09 am

      Oh wow…. I’m oddly surprised that he even still exists. I mean partly because, what the hell did Noah do after Neverending Story and partly because… you know… the Nothing…

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      May 24, 2016 at 7:11 am

      He hit puberty and did Troll in 1986. Then faded away into my memory …

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      May 24, 2016 at 7:13 am

      oddly enough, it never to this moment occurred to me that he was also Boxey.

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      May 24, 2016 at 8:32 am

      If you can find it, check out the Behind the Scenes making of the Spotify commercial Noah Hathaway is in. The go into great detail about how long it took them to airbrush erase his tattoos for the commercial. 🙂

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      May 24, 2016 at 12:24 pm

      See if you can Google the Behind the Scenes of the Spotify commercial where they go into detail about how much they had to airbrush his tatoos so they wouldn’t show up on the commercial. 🙂

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    May 24, 2016 at 7:13 am

    I really want to ask someone who crushed on Jackie Earle Haley in Bad News Bears how they felt after watching Watchmen

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      May 24, 2016 at 12:27 pm

      Growing up in the 70’s and 80’s and playing Little League baseball right about the time Bad news Bears came out, I can say without a doubt a lot of dudes (including me) that were about that age ALL wanted to be Jackie Earle Haley ’cause Kelly Leak was THE MAN! 🙂

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        May 24, 2016 at 12:28 pm

        Of course, a lot of that “admiration” changed quite a bit after seeing him in “Losin’ It” though. LOL!

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    May 24, 2016 at 7:27 am

    I had that “am I a creeper” moment seeing grown up Harry Potter kids. Just saw the guy who played Neville in an episode of Death in Paradise and I recognized the voice. Totally weirded me out.

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      May 24, 2016 at 7:46 am

      Hmmm. Now see those are interesting. I agree that’s a cast that certainly grew up sexy but we were already adults when they became famous.

      So like Emma Watson is stupid hot now, sure. But I don’t really feel as creepy about it because I never felt like kid Emma was sexy. It’s sort of easier for me to separate the 9 year old from the 26 year old. I have a much harder time doing that with Alyssa Milano.

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      May 24, 2016 at 7:51 am

      I agree there. Neville was the chubby kid with bad teeth. Then he posed in his underwear in his mid-20s and everyone was shocked because they hadn’t really seen him the way they saw the more popular ones like Daniel Radcliffe (doing nude scenes).

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    May 24, 2016 at 7:48 am

    I’m not much help here as I always tended to crush on older guys – Chris Reeve, Harrison Ford, Michael Biehn, Michael Praed. Never had much in the way of age-equivalent crushes. I’m sure a psychologist could have fun with that, but that’s how it was.

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    May 24, 2016 at 8:29 am

    Fairuza Balk, and yes… Still very very hot.

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