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5-20-08

5-20-08

Day 648 of 365 More.

"Now keep in mind that I’m an artist,
And I’m sensitive about my shit…"
-Badu

Let me let you in on a little secret. I’m not really a photographer. I never even wanted to be. I never took a single class for it.

What I wanted to be was an artist. It’s what I dreamed about when I was seven years old. It’s what I went to college for. I wanted to make comics. A childhood fantasy, sure, but its what I dreamed of.

That dream got ripped right out of my brain during school. I gave up. I became a writer, and later when I started seeing that being a writer was no more realistic than being an artist, I became a web designer.

Then I found photography. All the same rules of being an artist applied, just with different tools. And since I was doing it on my own again, there was no asshole faculty members telling me I was doing it wrong. I grew to even think I was kinda good at it. Sometimes I was even happy.

I got even happier when we started doing Hellcats. Lookie there! I was making a comic. The seven year old boy in my brain was shitting himself.

Max and I had this idea of doing a special edition of the book after we finish the second issue (which we still haven’t really started since we’ve been so busy with the comic strip). It would be four shorter solo stories, one for each of the girls. Each by a different artist. Max wants to write one of them as well as draw and it got me thinking that maybe I’d like to draw one as well as write.

God, I’m out of practice with freehand drawing. It’s been years since I’ve really given it a serious try. I totally suck now.

Now I have to decide if I want to retrain myself in the next few months (I don’t know when the hell I’d find the time) or just give up.

*sigh* There are just not enough hours in the day.

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11 comments for “5-20-08

  1. avatar
    May 21, 2008 at 2:20 am

    Give up? Neeeeeeveeeeeeeeeeer!

    I have a similar story because all my life i wanted to paint. I held a brush before holding a pencil. But then i grew up. "They" had to do the "this is not a living" brain wahing routine, right?

    And after so many years, after college and stupid jobs that suck the life out of you, i’m forcing the childhood dream back to life 🙂 Not with painting so much, but through photography. Even if it’s just a hobby (for the time being!), it’s still living the dream! And i’ve never been happier!

  2. avatar
    May 21, 2008 at 2:27 am

    find the time to follow your dream!
    good advise, huh……..One that I am struggling with and need to follow.
    Nice drawing, Mav.

  3. avatar
    May 21, 2008 at 6:55 am

    Whew! Makes me tired just thinking about it. You sure do keep a full plate!!!

  4. avatar
    May 21, 2008 at 7:45 am

    unleash the seven year old boy! do it…..

  5. avatar
    May 21, 2008 at 8:39 am

    Always persue your dreams, some people don’t have dreams and others are not allowed to follow their dreams. You will have an 8 day week with 27 hours in each day and be content.

  6. avatar
    May 21, 2008 at 12:14 pm

    The seven year old boy in my brain was shitting himself.

    Tell him to get out of them dirty pants and draw!!

  7. avatar
    May 21, 2008 at 8:41 pm

    Just like riding a bike :o)

  8. avatar
    May 22, 2008 at 1:42 am

    Ooo… I might want to raise my hand to be a guest artist… maybe 😉

  9. avatar
    May 22, 2008 at 3:32 pm

    @olga_sgr: I could certainly be happier. But I am working on it. Really I am.

    @psgypsy: eh, I’m not crazy about the drawing. And its fine advice. It just isn’t always practical.

    @lrayholly: yeah… i’m gonna burn out again soon. *sigh*

    @disco~stu: working on it

    @musik48190: uh… don’t really understand that, But thanks.

    @365bunnies: heh… if only it were tat easy.

    @~*Denise*~: I wish it were. It’s not. There’s a lot fo work that goes in to keeping that talent honed.

    @Stephen Poff: heh. Cool. We’ll be auditioning people someday. Not sure when yet.

  10. avatar
    May 23, 2008 at 3:50 pm

    Don’t forget to take a moment here and there to breathe. 🙂

  11. avatar
    April 14, 2016 at 11:38 am

    Great art work !!!

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